Prejudices about yourself

There are few situations in the past which we want to avoid in future. When those situations doesn't happen for few days then we think that we have been able to cope with it. But I forget that actually all these days I was not vulnerable to these situations. As now I am writing this post, it is for me to avoid writing few things which may be detrimental to all of us. I understand that most of the words which I have written here are in indirect sense and I know that  I will anytime understand that what I wanted to actually write. 

The other problem which I face here is that I want to be vulnerable to that feeling and at the same time I don't want to lose what is at store for me. From last few days, I have been going to internships and I have not learnt anything significant yet but yeah I have made few contacts. I have also learned to converse with the accused persons. I became aware of the fact that its very hard for a lawyer to understand whether the person to whom he is going to represent is right or wrong. I understand that I was on other point and suddenly I changed the topic to the law. I have a feeling right now that lot of things are running in my mind simultaneously. Its a miracle of human mind that how it concentrates on specific things. 

When we want to work on something specific properly without any negativity then nothing can stop you from achieving your goal. I remember only once that I worked without any negativity in that case. It was in 6th class probably when we use to have summer classes and I had decided that I would read everything properly and I would get beyond 95 percent. That exam I got 96 percent. Since the inception happens and mind suffers from lot of prejudices and sometime prejudices affect our working style and sometimes it may also lead to negativity. 

I need to go right now. I will be back from your mobile.

Regards,

Raj Agrawal

Cry

Dear all,

There are few things in my life which I regret most and I want to cry regarding them. But see,what justice 'The Ultimate' has done with your friend; he has rendered me helpless and hapless in this case. I am not able to cry regarding those 'few things'. When I feel that I am about to cry, all I could feel is watery sensation in my eyes and no tear falls. I want to cry hard. 

My parents are not satisfied with my performance at the college. My eldest sister has completed Chartered Accountancy, while my other elder sister is about to complete her medical degree. They both have been good in their academics since inception of their academic life. I used to be atop till 8th grade but I consistently saw downfall since then. I have done considerable amount of work regarding philosophy and of course I have wasted great deal of time watching movies. 

I successfully left Facebook and my next experiment will be to regulate 'movie watching'. I regularly watch movies on my computer. I really appreciate good movies but at the same time its utmost important for me that I should do the work in proper manner so that others shall appreciate me. I should work not only for appreciation but also for my own satisfaction. I do not give time to my writing. 

Now I have understood that I should write more in quantity and at the same time I should also concentrate on quality of my writing. When I may write article, I shall check it for gramatical errors. 

Sorry mates, tomorrow I got college at 7.15 am so I would need to rush to bed. 

Good Life Ahead.

Regards,

Raj Agrawal

Necessity of preparation

I feel that it is very necessary to get prepared before doing any task. Notion of such task differs from person to person. For me, such task includes writing an article on politics blog, writing a story or any humongous article. The task may be carried out in many levels.

Writing involves knowledge of language ( includes grammer, vocablury etc.), knowledge regarding the topic and a brief outline or plot. There is no degree of perfection when it comes to language and knowledge. Language gets matured while knowledge keeps increasing. Making a plot is like planning or screenplay in movie. It systemizes the writing. Its very difficult to connect the dots.

I wanted to write something like some long story but right now I feel that I should concentrate on augmenting my English skills.Its better to sharp an axe before chopping of a tree. Its the reason that I do not write very frequently on my blogs. In other words, quality should matter not the quantity. Quantity increases population and do tend to decrease emphasis.

I write when I really feel to write.

I am experimenting with slightness. Slightness...

Ultimate be with you friends.

Raj Agrawal

Hamlet 2 Globe in my life

Dear friends...

How are you?

I am writing this post at four am in the morning. Well... Dont think I am sleepy but I am in my full senses. I never told you that I used to run weekly meetings for a NGO called Hamlet 2 Globe. The philosophy of Hamlet 2 Globe had been floated by its founder global president Vedchetan Patil. He is practising Advocate in Mumbai and he was classmate of my elder sister. Ved bhaiyya conveyed his idea regarding forming of Pune unit. When I became aware about its central working philosophy, I was very enthusiastic. 

IN PUNE UNIT :

In Pune unit, when I introduced to my friend then we planned the working style and finally we got 10 interested members. I had always been eager to know whether all these members are really enthusiastic.

We used to conduct presentations in our hostel rooms. I myself did many presentations on judicial accountability bill. For a while, I dissolved my post of presidentship for two meetings and made one of my juniors as interim president. I found that interim president had worked well on his presentation but no messages were floated for the meeting. Thats the point where I came back to picture again and I partially assumed my position and floated the smses with the help of one of juniors.

I experienced later that personal agendas always comes first in anyone's mind. Their personal priorities were more. In initial meetings we had many members, but number of members gradually declined. Later, at the very last meeting I planned to give some administrative setup to it. I selected six core members, I made all the working rules, I gave veto powers to all the members of core committee and also gave power to put forth proposals. 

I had planned to draft a special constitution on the basis of my constitution laid down in one of my facebook groups. I had many plans but I admit that I failed to execute. That was failure because of the state of confusion which has been surrounding me from many years. When I wrote about all this plans in my weekly report, it was criticised by my ultimate i.e. dad on the ground that I was deviating myself away from the ground of academics and moving towards administrative thing. I accept this contention because what was my pure aim to stay in pune; it was to study and I was getting more of sentimental regarding fame. I thought that this chair would be useful for getting fame. I used to feel good that my facebook profile depicted that I work at hamlet to globe. 

The thing which disturbed me badly was that people I dealt with are selfish. I conveyed the same to our president and he replied that most people will be selfish. Since then I have not talked to him because I deleted my facebook account and I havent tried to communicate with him. I will communicate with him soon.

Thanks...

Raj...

Long time

Dear friends...

I am back after so many days. All this things are part of my experiment and leaving facebook was one of my experiment which is successful till now. Right I won't declare any experiments because I am thinking that what type of experiment should be carried forward so that it would be beneficial for me and my future as well.

I am adamant for carrying out strict and better reforms for my life and at the same time I also wish to be regular on the blog bevause I am posting about two months later. I dont want to lose any of my readership because I am concerned about my people and I don't want to miss and loose them. Right now I am using samsung galaxy tab 2 and I am finding it great to use and if this is really great to post my articles then let me also tell you that now even commenting on the possible via new android application.

I wish to acknowledge that some people have told me regarding my untold stories on facebook and some people really liked it. I had stopped it by writing sixteen articles and later I shifted my writing base to this great blog. I know I may not get great readership here as it was on facebook but I am positive about readership and someday this blog may turn to great one. I have invited one of my friends to write on this blog and I am glad to know that he is very keen on writing posts but he is not able to do so because of time constraints.

I can never doubt his writing abilities. I am planning for a makeover of the blog and I may do changes which may be in gradual sense but it can evolve this blog. I have over 5 blogs of which I own three and I am contributor in two places. This is one of my favourite blogs.

May god bless you... !

Regards,

Raj M. Agrawal

Prejudices affected- absence of silence

Life was pretty simple before but today when one of your act leads you towards unwanted direction or make you feel that `Dude! you have to start over again... whatever you had gained has lost due to your foolishness.'   

whatever principles you had followed, you were happy but suddenly when you break the ice, in good faith; I realised that it was something which i should not have done. a day before, i was happy but now what surrounds me is total noise. two of my friends are trying to break the ice of silence... i have told them that i am dire need of silence ... its time for me to talk clearly... before anyone points out than let me tell you that,  I know that no one is so free to talk to me and call me. 

The other option is to switch off the mobile phone but i feel that what if some urgency comes up... you never know what actually awaits you... i ignored few calls from few of my friends, because my sleeping time came up and i can't allow any discrepancies during my sleeping because i have done enough to disturb my sleeping time... if i take call then it will result in flow and exchange of information which takes lot of time... then sleeping time gets late by one hour which results in drowsyness and dullness in the morning...

And i have classes in the early morning... work came up.... see you later blog...

Yours generously,

Raj

Calm plus slight

Life is fine nw....       no immediate reaction... i brote lyf bck 2 track... want to bring studies too....

Silence

Friends I was not able to satisfy the contention laid down by Anubhav because I am using mobile software to write these posts. And more lately,  I have been busy in my spiritual awakening.

Anubhav, leaving facebook is very very big thing me.I have tried my best to leave it and you may be right that i may return back some day but i would still try to be away from it. TRYING is what everybody is doing ultimately. One gets successful when try meets preparation. my policy is to be away from this distraction permanently and once for all. I am free from many years. I have not taken any job seriously from many years. I hav tried to make myself serious bt it was for only few days or less interval of tym.

My main prob is focus. If i m nt wrong den focus is wat everybody is trying to gain. I have said dis many times that whoever wins mind wins da world. Dis may be my prob forever but wat is at my hand is tryin. I would try not to indulge in the timetable in watching movies etc.

I need to go nw....

.... silence ....

Dear friends     i am using my mobile for writing this article so please consider my punctuation mistakes. This is first time in my life where I seem to get success in one of my activities that is to leave best social networking website. I have been active member of social networking sites since inception of my serious studies. Only two three days more and this time I want to make it permanent with any chances of returning back. The work which I used to carry out with it can be carried out through other means also.

After all humans were without all this stuff in primitive time. But as the time passes we get habitual to these trivial things which is actually not desirable to me. Now its high time to bring life to the ultimate of the work. I am trying to get as much as serious as I can. Life is full of darkness; I developed a fond for darkness. 

The best time is when you are alone in your territory and no one can disturb you. You are king in your arena. You are king and you are only servant. You make your own laws and only you have to follow it. No ego issues arise and no one can call you tyrannical or authoritarian.
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